Yep. I’m still here. I’m still alive. I’m still kicking. All with a stent in my heart. which I’m grateful for. After all, if its working correctly, I’m still alive and breathing. And I’m still alive and breathing. Whether its working correctly will be one for the doc to determine in a few weeks, but apparently its doing some good. I don’t run out of breath when I make it to the top of the stairs. I’m still somewhat winded once I get there, but those fourteen steps don’t kill me like I had been in the past. So far, so good.

So that’s the “whoa” news. But there’s got to be something a bit better, right? After all, its the start of a new year…somewhat. There’s got to be something good, right? Well…there is. I’m getting started back on my Ovate grade studies. Back at the beginning. Like I had started over…which essentially I am doing. But this feels different. I feel a charge in what I am doing. I can’t quite get a feel around it….except to say that there’s a different feel to it. A “charge”…if you will. But its certainly a fire on my back-end. A driving force, if you prefer. It certainly feels like something different is going on in my life. Things may not be as good as they can get, but they feel “right” towards moving onwards.

The rest of life is not the best that it can be. I still live each day as I normally do. I try my best to get things done. Sometimes I win. Sometimes I lose. Sometimes, its just a draw. But this is about getting ahead of things. Sometimes, I’ll do more than I need to. Sometimes, I won’t. Sometimes, I can’t. But there’s always the chance to try. That’s what these blog posts are about. Trying. I don’t always post the happies things that happen to me. But I always try. And there’s plenty to write about in the “sad” department. I can’t hold a job. I’m only active through half of the day. There’s not much to be fulfilled about…if that’s even a word. But I’m happy that I’m alive. Its not much in the way of living, but its not dying. That much is true. And as long as I am not dying….I’m alive. And I’m thankful for that.

–T /|\